Help I have fallen and can't get up.

Bradley is mean lately. I need a break. For boys. What should I do?

My parents are too cool for School.

And it is days like today that remind me of the incredible blessing of my parents. My parents are active saturday goers. They like to get up and go out to breakfast and then take a road trip. Where? Well it depends. Apple picking, garage sailing, just simply driving.

I often hear my friends complaining about their parents. How they hate spending time with them. They simply don't understand them. They often complain about how their parents faith is so overwhelming.

I have never ever felt this once. I love spending time with my parents. They are far cooler than I am. And not only that but I want all of my friends to meet them and spend time with them. Because their faith is so honest and active that when you spend time with them it is refreshing. It is like entering all the wonderful aspects of Christianity, the things that our postmodern generation has forgotten about.

As a child I have never seen the Grace of God so clearly as I do in my parents. They understand the goodness of Christ's mercies.

When I called my father after he lost his job of 27 years, I said, "Dad are you freaking out?" and he said, "No, Annie I know who is in control. This is when my faith increases." Simply amazing, for a daughter to see the blinding faith of her father is wonderful. I often tell this story to my friends, and even as I type this a tear roles down my cheek because I am so thankful.

No matter what I do or do not do my parents will be there. I know this for sure.

As for my mother. Well I would have to write a novel to tell of how wonderful she is. She is beautiful beyond belief, and has no idea, but we all see it. She can make anything fun, a saturday becomes an adventure with her. And her interpretation of scripture is enlightening and fresh. It is because she is so active. She honestly is in love with the Lord. How many people do you meet like that? Few I will tell you.

Anyways I could write forever about the blessings of my parents but I am procrastinating a research paper. So all the to say, thanks mom and dad.

1 Peter 2:3 "Now that you have tasted that the Lord is good."

Dumb-founded

It was in the starbucks of Barne's and Nobles. I had driven three hours with the intentions of ending the relationship. All the reasons accounted for, the pro's and con's list in the passangers seat. It all made sense. Until I saw him. The first glance was through a car that was park in between him and I and even through those two windows of glass I could not resist him.

Naturally we spent the whole day together but the talk, ah the talk, was held at the Starbucks.

"I am not a spiritual leader, Annie. Why doesn't that bother you? Why aren't you with someone that is? You are settling"

I knew this. I was ignoring these questions couldn't he see that? Didn't he know that I was dumbing down that part of my life so that we could be together? Allowing for scripture to take the back burner in my life and conversation with him. It didn't need to though, he wanted to hear what I thought about Christianity.....I don't know why I didn't share. So it was so strange that I as the "Christian" was listening to him "as the....believer but not believer of the personal God" was being called out on scripture. He was commiting our relationship to the Lord. Oh man...Good thing Christ is in charge because obviously I fail.

I still like him. I still hope for a future but I am ok.
I am entering His rest.

This was the perfect afternoon.

VICTORY

VICTORY IN JESUS MY SAVIOR FOREVER!

It has finally come. When I least expect. The Lord broke all ties. I no longer and in love. Who knew that it would take me by surprise. Friendship.....real friendship for the first time.

As the fall approaches memories of jake leak into my mind and they feel different. They feel like a good memory with an old friend. Thank you Lord for your timing. Thank you for fall that now is a month of oppurtunity.

It is so funny that I was so attached to him because now when i think about it I cannot understand why? I am so better than pining.

I feel new.

I saw jake yesterday for the first time in months. Nothing was there......not even anywhere deep inside of me.

I wish Bradley would visit me? Am I being a silly girlfriend being aggravated that he hasn't visited yet? I mean i guess it has only been like a month and a week. That is silly. Maybe I will visit him this weekend. Ahhh but phil is coming!

he's fine.

at your request........bradley.