Dumb-founded

It was in the starbucks of Barne's and Nobles. I had driven three hours with the intentions of ending the relationship. All the reasons accounted for, the pro's and con's list in the passangers seat. It all made sense. Until I saw him. The first glance was through a car that was park in between him and I and even through those two windows of glass I could not resist him.

Naturally we spent the whole day together but the talk, ah the talk, was held at the Starbucks.

"I am not a spiritual leader, Annie. Why doesn't that bother you? Why aren't you with someone that is? You are settling"

I knew this. I was ignoring these questions couldn't he see that? Didn't he know that I was dumbing down that part of my life so that we could be together? Allowing for scripture to take the back burner in my life and conversation with him. It didn't need to though, he wanted to hear what I thought about Christianity.....I don't know why I didn't share. So it was so strange that I as the "Christian" was listening to him "as the....believer but not believer of the personal God" was being called out on scripture. He was commiting our relationship to the Lord. Oh man...Good thing Christ is in charge because obviously I fail.

I still like him. I still hope for a future but I am ok.
I am entering His rest.